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Wednesday, April 1, 2020

The World Mourns


Three weeks ago, life was still normal.  People just did what they did, living their life as if nothing was wrong, nothing could go wrong.  I'd hear tidbits about growing virus concern, but it was distant from my life, my worries.  Now, the pandemic has conquered the world.  There are few people, few things that virus concerns don't touch.  We read weekly, daily, of incomprehensible numbers of cases of this wildly spreading virus.  Worse yet, we read accounts of thousands who die, of thousands and thousands of families who weep over the graves and memories of cousins, grandparents, parents, children who have passed beyond the veil. 


Meanwhile, those who are heeding the call of governments everywhere, sometimes the laws of governments everywhere, to shelter at home.  Grocery stores have become hot spots as people scramble to make sure they have enough to survive, sometimes more than enough, leaving others without.  Many other businesses, streets, former tourist destinations, sit empty and locked, waiting for life to return to some sense of normalcy.  Some look for someone to blame.  Most find frustration.  But we all are united in the same lifestyle, on some level, because we all face the same monster, an illness we can't see, can't fight except to hide and keep our distance. 


We're all mourning the life we had before.  We're mourning our freedom, our sense of normalcy, sometimes our jobs and stability.  Many of us are mourning those we have lost.  Some of us are used to mourning, to loss, to pain.  We're used to looking for a new normal because mourning has become central to our lives.  It's on some level nice to be united in something, to have a common ground with people from around the world.  But on every other level, it just sucks to mourn.  It sucks to lose.  It sucks to be in pain, to miss the life we had before.  We together hold to hope life will return to something like we had once upon a time, just three weeks ago.  In the meantime, we're together but alone, united in loss and pain and fear, praying for the day the world will make sense.